`just when i was sobbing so hard under my pillow,
just when i was thinking why did u lie,
just when i was forcing myself to be happy and wake up from this nightmare,
you messaged me.
`i was lost momentarily,
i didn't know what to do.
`it was as though you were telling me to not give up on you,
it was as though you knew how i was feeling at that moment,
that's why you made your name appear in my inbox.
but still,
i refuse to give in.
its enough,
`i've had enough.
`i've had enough of struggling with the pain,
as though i could really take it all by myself.
i've had enough of your lies,
i've had enough of you not knowing anything
i've had enough of being caught in your confusion.
i've had enough of this hurtful love.
`so what if its all shattered?
who cares to mend it when i myself don't even have the strength to mend it?
who cares if it doesn't know how to love anymore?
who going to care and bother about it when its just so stubborn?
why did i fall in love with you?
`i'll just leave it there.
and move on,
never with a heart to love another.
that innocent smile which captivates
`[3:04 AM]
