`it has been a long time since,
the day i said the promise,
since the day,
we parted.
`i don't know how to put it,
but i just know,
i'm missing you so badly.
sigh, but again,
i wouldn't know how to face you,
i wouldn't know how to react to you.
i wouldn't know how to just,
stop looking into your eyes,
in hope of seeing the one in you,
who used to love me so,
who used to bring me tingles in my heart,
who used to care for me so much,
who used to buy me presents and flowers...
sigh, the flowers,
they're all dried up,
its like,
i'm still here, waiting,
but everything around me,
they're moving on,
the flowers,
the time,
n maybe,
you.
`maybe,
i should really move on too,
`i've been trying and trying so hard,
but my dear,
its just so difficult,
i didn't realise i was this deeply in love with you.
`even if one day,
you return back to my side,
i won't bring you happiness,
i'll just make you feel bad,
make you feel stressed,
make you feel troubled,
find faults with you,
and make you solve a whole lot of problems.
i know you're always confused,
always at loss of what to do,
but i don't blame you,
if i wasn't so particular about some things,
if i hadn't expected so much,
there won't be many problems.
`its better just to have one person be sad than the both of us,
so my dearest,
i do want you to be happy,
i do want you to lead a carefree life without me around,
i do want you to be free of problems.
`i'm sure someone out there would be the one for you,
the one whom you've been waiting for,
the perfect one for you who can make you happy,
make you feel blissful,
care for you,
be there for you,
and protect you against all odds.
i'll be sad,
i know.
i know how much my heart will ache when the time comes,
but again,
i have no one to blame but myself,
i shouldn't be clinging on,
i shouldn't be making my problem become yours,
i can't be so selfish as to just,
not say hi to you because my heart aches,
i should spare a thought for you.
`so now,
i'll say hi to you everytime i see you,
i'll smile and be happy that we're at least friends,
maybe someday,
i'd get over it without me knowing,
maybe time will bring everything away with it,
even the love that i have for you.
`there and then,
i think i would be feeling so empty,
feeling as though i've lost a part of me.
sigh,
but i guess,
it'll be alright somewhere in future.
i dread that day,
i want to keep this wonderful feeling in me.
this love i have for you..
that innocent smile which captivates
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