`i'd rather not know.
`i knew it.
just that i didn't know it was this fast.
i didn't know my hopes would be crashed this fast, this quick.
so hurting.
`i shouldn't have let myself believe once again.
it was so stupid of me.
i shouldn't have.
`but i can't stop.
i can't stop having thoughts of you.
having hopes,
starting to believe.
`you led me on,
or rather,
i allowed myself to be led on.
`don't just leave again.
`i hate this.
so much.
that innocent smile which captivates
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