`caught a glimpse of you today.
`why didn't you say hi?
i saw her waving,
i turned around and it was you.
but you weren't looking in my direction,
maybe you didn't wanted to say hi,
maybe its all because..
i don't know.
`i just realised all the while,
this blog,
it has been talking bout me, me and me.
all about how i feel,
what i think,
and how i wished things would be like.
but hers was different,
she had such high hopes of you,
she talks about the past all the time,
never a time is she even talking bout her being sad and dissapointed,
no heart breaks,
no broken promises,
no lies.
somehow it just makes things so positive,
so wonderful.
`but right here,
i talk about disappointments,
i talk about the broken promises you made,
i talk about the lies you said.
it just makes things so negative,
you're no longer wonderful.
`i just don't have the drive anymore,
i don't know how to help others anymore,
because i don't even have that faith myself,
so how do i make others believe in their love?
even my besty,
i don't know how to help her face her problems anymore,
i get so frustrated with the matters of the heart,
i feel so helpless when i have to face all these problems,
i no longer know how to believe,
how to trust,
how to wish.
`no.
i don't want anymore diappointments; i can't wish and hope, they'll bring me the disappoinments.
i don't want to hear lies; i rather i know nothing, because when i do, i will know the lies too.
i don't want to think about the past; they just make me remember all the broken promises.
i don't look forward to the future too; how much more hurt will there be?
would you come and pick me up?would we ever ever get together again?would you ever love me again?are you happy this way?is it true that you no longer love me?....if i can ask god...
that innocent smile which captivates
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