`just like before,
the whole cycle repeats itself,
because i fell for you again,
because i went back that old me.
because i kept you right where you were,
from the very first day you told me you love me.
from that very day when i plucked up all my courage,
to love you openly,
wholeheartedly.
`i'm starting to miss you so badly,
i miss talking to you,
it has been ages since i've spoken to you.
`i wonder if you think of me.
do you pray for me to be fine and well?
do you care about me? at all?
`i've been questioning myself over and over again.
even all the blog entries are the same.
the feelings,
they never change.
the grieve,
the way i miss you,
they'll never go away.
`i know faking isn't the solution,
but now,
i have no other choice.
i have to tell myself i don't love you,
i have to make myself stop all these nonsense.
`i hope i can make it.
its going to be so hard,
so tough,
but i only have myself to rely on.
sigh.
i'm so stupid to be caught in all these shit.
that innocent smile which captivates
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