would you still be there for me when i am feeling down?
would you still comfort me?
would you still, send me messages telling me about forever friends,
how much you treasure me, how much i matter, would you?
what about those sweet things you did?
will i still be the first one that comes to your mind?
or has she taken over that place?
all that i remember.
the letter that magically appeared in the pages of that book,
that made me felt tingles in my heart while reading.
the times when you were on such good terms with her,
so close that i thought i felt jealousy running through me.
the times when you started blogging about this girl,
whom i was so curious to know,
someone whom seem so perfect to you,
until i proved you wrong,
until the flaws in me appeared.
the day on the bus when i asked if you could lend me your shoulder.
valentine's day, the roses, the necklace.
my birthday, the earrings, the broken promise.
the promises we had.
the times when i hated everyday,
just because i know i have to wait for your messages,
knowing that they won't come any sooner.
the times when it dawned on me how much i loved you,
how much i could do for you,
how much you mattered,
how nice, how sweet, how caring and how understanding you were.
simply charming,
up till now.
where have all that gone to?
they are right here,
in my mind,
my thoughts when i drift away,
my sweet memories which embraces me when i am down,
that is all i have left of you,
glimpses, even they are gone.
the break-up shrugs you of the responsibility.
to care about me just that little more.
i yearn for that care, really.
that innocent smile which captivates
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