my god,
i can't stop thinking about you,
i dunnoe why am i behaving this way,
i'm all about you.
watching people around me get together,
i could feel that tinge of jealousy,
right after that,
sadness, regret...
sigh*
i could still remember all the sweet things you did,
that face of yours when you give me those gifts,
and how apologetic you look when you knew i got angry,
i could still remember the way your eyes are filled with care and concern,
the way you force me to take my meals,
the way you tell me you love me.
i could still remember the day i said yes,
that letter you gave me,
the anxious you.
sigh*
its all in the past,
and i know all these would not happen again.
remembering all these,
i could feel the pain coming all over again,
the way the messages got later and later,
the way we drifted further and further no matter how hard i tried to keep you,
the very day when you told me,
the feelings have fadedargh*
never mind about them,
its already over,
i shouldn't be raking up the past,
just making myself feel worse.
that innocent smile which captivates
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