i no longer feel tingles in my heart when our eyes meet,
i feel my heart wrenching,
i feel my tears coming.
for the only hour i slept,
i dreamt of you,
i dreamt that you gave me a hug,
and she asked me why are you giving me false hopes,
why hug me when you obviously are not going to make things better?
*sigh*
i woke up,
it is all surfacing to me that i am just living in a huge lie,
why ask me to be with you only to let the love fade?
why make me love you only to say maybe we weren't that close after all?
why make 999 hearts, only to make me count them over and over, wondering if it was ever true?
why tell me to choose a puzzle only to give me a last minute birthday present?
why tell me you would keep loving me only to let me see you get close with another?
why did you tell me you love me,
only for me to believe that you no longer do.
why must i love you so much?
*sigh*
i know, i'll never get any answers from you.
not even a notation to tell me to keep loving you.
was the message unclear again?
or are your feelings unclear now?
i love you,
*sobs*
i really do.
that innocent smile which captivates
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