*ouch*
my gastrics are taking a toll on me again.
*sigh*
i know you would not be there to force me to take my meals,
not care as much,
ever again.
but i'll be fine with it,
i must be fine,
bcuz i hav no reasons to be sad,
no reasons to yearn for your care.
i know,
i no longer have the right to restrict you or anything,
but nowadays when i start to think about all that had happened,
i somehow realised that,
i had not really get any answers as to why everything that happened had happened,
all that i know was that i kept telling myself you care,
and i overlooked everything,
i didn't prompt on for answers after you said 'i don't know'
i didn't got full reasons.
but it is alright,
as long as you are no longer as vexed, as troubled,
i'm fine with anything.
at least i don't bother you anymore,
at least i don't, add on to your troubles.
i can't help but feel sad that everything has ended though,
because i know things won't ever be the same anymore,
i know that if i hadn't accepted u that day,
maybe we would be best of friends..
but i had never regretted accepting you,
till this day,
because if not,
i wouldn't have felt the sweetness of you,
the unconditional love from you,
the endless care,
those sweet words that would set me in butterflies,
those messages that would quicken my heratbeats n make me giggle to myself, i still kept them all, i just believe that they are true, because at least they are what u sent me..
i know that everything has changed now,
but i am very sure of something,
that is i'll love you till very long,
very very long..
i didn't know i would love you this much at first,
i didn't know i would be able to put in so much,
to love you wholeheartedly n do every single thing i could to keep you,
but i guess,
you are just irresistable..
for now till as long as it takes,
i'll keep the light burning till always my darling,
until one day when you blow it out..
that innocent smile which captivates
`[11:12 PM]
