Wednesday, June 15, 2005
i was very hesitant,it took me a long long time to make the decision,i held on to my breathe;n said those words.i'm sorrybut..once again;i've never ever said all ur explainatons were excuses..you were the one who told me they were..i've always listened patiently to ur explainations.i took word for word for real..i've always believed.n..i dun mind u going out with them,really.i've told u before,n i am not tryin to make u feel better,they r my real intentions..i understand that friends come first,i really do.dun look upon me to be so demanding,i hope i'm not..ur words stabbed me..
'i juz dun feel like msgin'
is that really how u feel?
i just feel like going into a deep deep sleep,having a long long dream,where everything is so wonderful,with all that i ask for,leading a contented, sweet n happy life,living in a fairytale with you.as the bitter cold rain poured down on me,as i was shivering today,i thought,had your heart,n the feelings been this way?cold to the touch,unfeeling.i sat there,longing for you to come,to ease the pain in my heart,to give me warmth,to keep me in your embrace.but i had just pushed u away,i've given up,i dunnoe why i did.
that innocent smile which captivates
`[10:59 PM]
