Sunday, June 05, 2005
hmm..it has been awhile since i blogged..n guess this time round..i won't blog abt him.. guess he's too busy to even look at my previous entries..
sometmes..i juz wonder..does anyone ever noe how much one has put in to do something? as in something like sacrificing oneself for someone else, doing all that u can to make things better..guess the person on the receiving end of all these sacrifices n efforts would be more touched then before to noe how much tt person had put in, all juz for the sake of making him/her feel better.. but i guess, he would never noe how foolish my tauts were..
hmm..listenin to 'almost here' now n.. it juz makes me tink of the state we're in now..i'm tinkin..r u reallie here with me when i'm with u? n everytime when things get better..did they reallie got better? or were they juz giving in to me..juz to make me feel better..i dunnoe.but i juz hav this insecurity abt ur doubts..i'm juz afraid u would turn to someone else to solve our problem..juz like u've alwaes came to me when u had problems with them in the past..but i guess..all that is inevitable..u wouldn't possibly come tellin wad a person i am..but to tell u..u can juz sae anithin straight in my face..i promise i'll make things better..at least i noe wad u tink of me..
*smiles* tink i juz can't get u outta my head when i tink of wad's in my mind..
lately..everyone seems to be losing touch of one another..some even juz let go.. lookin at all these happenings..they jua scare me..i wonder.. when will it be our turn? i hope tt dae would never come..but nevertheless..i still believe tt it is all those quarrels, misunderstandings n confronations tat makes the love stronger..but too much of them are of no good either.. how funny.. when it is obviously tt certain something tt makes things better, too much of them makes things worse..
hope tt thing would get better for my frens, hope tt they can believe in each other, n themselves.. n get on with their wonderful n magical lifes..
i've learnt loads from this relationship..
i've learnt tt when u believe in love, u need no promises, u need no proving.. juz like how i've picked myself up from all tt has happened..juz bcuz i believe in our love, n i believe in u.. =)
i've learnt tt u need understanding, no matter how much he has done wrong, u hafta still understand tt he didn't did it on purpose..n he still cared..
i've learnt to be forgiving, to overlook all his mistakes n make the best out of him.. i've learnt to be patient.. to know he would never forget about me..
n most of all..i've learnt to keep the love going strong.. i tink tt is wad tt makes me believe, understand, forgive and hold my patience..=)
tomorrow's the third month..hope tt u would remember, dun disappoint me, alrite? =) i believe u would rememeber..
that innocent smile which captivates
`[8:17 PM]
