Saturday, April 23, 2005
please..dun doubt me..u noe i cherish u more than her..so stop doubting me..tellin me i look fine with her n all tt..u make me feel..as thou i am so not trustworthy n tt i am going back on my words again..to tell u..she is one gal whom i will never get back together with again..she is juz too..unacceptable..n i hav told u..i'll never ever forgive her..so..stop letting her influence u thru her mind games..be strong gal..n accept urself for who u r..u r important to me..she is unimportant..believe me..alright? i will not go back on my words..things r different now..juz..trust me..the feelin of insecurity is coming back..n i suddenly feel inferior n afraid tt what i had done will be done onto me now..she told her..u r someone who'll like the person whom u can confide in n understand ur thoughts..i gave it a taut n realised tt it was all true..coming clear to me..she had comforted u when u were down with m n i had comforted u throughout n be dere for u..n..u were with her..n now me..so..is what she sae reallie true?i am afraid to lose u..i truely am..lookin at her now..i feel inferior n worried tt she will..juz take u away frm me..even thou u had promised.. somehow i knew promises could be broken..mabbe cuz i had seen them being broken..i am afraid tt they r nt dere to be true..but somedae..to make me juz..devastated when i noe they had been broken..i noe it is cuz of the exams tt we're gettin distant..but somehow..it juz feels different..i could still feel ur love den..but now..why r they so..vague? the messages r coming in later n later..n tt dae..u told me ur bill was bombing..i hadn't messaged u much..y? u quickly said it was cuz u had been sendin ppl lotsa messages..who were they?issit her again..i dunnoe if it is me n my assumptons again..but..it juz seems that i am too insecure n tt i can't trust u..although i hav forced myself to do so time n again..i'm sorrie for being unable to juz..trust u..but i'm sure u r true to me..u r..rite? i noe everything is juz blocked by the vast amount of work n stress..n..mabbe cuz i seldom noe wad u r doin nowadaes..i noe i shouldn't restrict u frm messagein..u hav every right to do so..never mind about wad i said..u can do wad u want..i noe freinds come first..i can tolerate tt..but i juz need tt lil more attention? i wanna see the rainbow..even in the dark..
that innocent smile which captivates
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