Monday, April 25, 2005
i dun wanna be irritating.. dun wanna alwaes ask u y.. n the long waits..they seem like forever..things juz..dun seem to change no matter how much i do..*sigh*
but it's okae now..at least..i get replies n i noe more..juz a little more..i noe i hafta be understanding n accept all that its happening..but..i am juz afraid tat things will end up..like the way it happened btw u n her..she too did not receive ur messages for awhile n everything ended shortly afta tat..i often wonder..am i irritatin? am i botherin u? am i askin too much? it seems that i am..cuz..i juz feel tat..wad is the diff when the waits r still dere in btw?i tink..u dun hav time for me..u hafta relax n rest..i shan't bother ur rests..i shan't.. stand in the way preventing u from relaxing..i dun wanna add on to the stress..
i hafta be strong n pull through the storm..i noe i can make it through the rain..juz like i did..but now..will u still be dere with me? i dun wanna treat u like my 'gdfren' but u may be right..i hafta concentrate..but..it doesn't mean i am not concentrating when i tink of u..when i miss u n ur smiles n ur voice..when i am tryin to tink wad u r tinkin..i believe things would hav been betta if they stayed the same..i wouldn't be..tinkin so much n guessin n assuming so much like i am doing now..
forget it..i doubt u noe how i feel..i noe i am in ur way..i shall juz..step out n brave through this..i juz hafta give up on wad i reallie wanna get across to u..mabbe cuz i hadn't said enough..or mabbe u got it..but nothin has been done..forget it..juz..forget it..
that innocent smile which captivates
`[10:53 PM]
